Wednesday, March 31, 2010


A is for Apple pie
B is for Burger
C is for Childhood Obesity...

Sunday, March 28, 2010

Late night visitor

Arrive home 1040pm
Turn light on and walk to bedroom.
Drop bag on bed and walk back out to look at weird gecko above doorway.
Not gecko.
Snake now not happy.
Try not to scream.
Do a little dance but try not to scare snake more at same time.
Ring Amie.
Freak her out.
Run around house and get to bag and mobile from other doorway.
Ring Ex.
"You're kidding!!" "No, there's a SNAKE in my house!!" "You're *%@$, I'm not going near it, ring the wildlife people"
Ring other male friend.
No answer.
Leave weird freaked out voice mail.
Ring another male friend.
"You've rung the wrong person, I'm no help to you, I'm no good with snakes"
Ring Miss K ... no answer.
Look up S for snake handler in phonebook... Nothing...
Look up Wildlife.... safari/experience/zoo.... no handler... hmmm...
Ring Amie back. Offered a bed.
Miss K rings back.
"Do you have a fork?... Have you got spray?..."
"I'm NOT going near it! I'm not going to try and catch it!!!"
"close the door and put towels around the bottom so he can't get in."
Realise how exhausted am.
Weigh up options of staying or leaving house.
Driving unsafe :(
Leave lights on.
Close doors.
Push towels into little crack at base of door.
Don't sleep.

I don't want to think about actually having to open the door in the morning!!!

Wish it was made of wool :(

Maybe that's where the last of my mice went?

Lazy Sunday

The weather was wet, dark and perfect :)
So I decided to stay in bed all day...

How did you enjoy your day?

Sunday Citar

Sunday Citar is brought to you by Fresh Mommy, somewhere we can all share a bit of beauty in words and images.
So first off I wanted to share just a little of the beauty I live in :D One of those tiny figures is me, enjoying the gorgeous swimming hole in the middle of the Daintree rainforest!

I want to beg you, as much as I can,
to be patient toward all that is unsolved in your heart and to try to love the questions themselves like locked rooms and like books that are written in a very foreign language.
Do not seek the answers which cannot be given you, because you would not be able to live them.
And the point is to live everything. Live the questions now.
Perhaps you will then gradually , without noticing it, live along some distant day into the answer. ~ Rainer Maria Rilke

I am impatient. Yup I am, I'm happy to admit it. There are times where surprisingly I'm not. But the majority of the time I long for the answers here and now.
But I've realised the beauty in not knowing them. In the adventures of pressing through and not seeing the answers. And what if I had known the answers? Would it have been encouragement? Or would it have served to enforce the "That is impossible!/I can't do that" attitude and stopped myself from getting there?
So I want to share that beauty with you all today. In not seeking answers which cannot be given and instead gradually living along into the answer. Where you can look back and go WOW look what I achieved.

Saturday, March 27, 2010

Greatest fear

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Happy Birthday!!

It's a day late posting, the thought was there earlier, but so should have been this post!! Sorry....

Happy Birthday to my dear beautiful friend!
You are an amazing woman of God and I enjoy being able to talk with you as we walk the journey!! which brings me to..
You are amazing cause you listen to ME and all my blabberings on and on and on and on and on....
You are inspiring!
You are wise!
You are creative, imaginative and talented! You can turn ugly into pretty or funky.
You are an amazing mother, I'm very glad not to have kids right now cause I would be feeling inadequate beside you. I don't know how you do it all!!! And I never say it cause I don't think you'd believe me. But it's true.
You are funky!
You are crazy good at finding the coolest, funkiest things online that we absolutely always "need", some might think it should be "want" but between us we can always find the way to give an object a sense of love and belonging and make it a need :)
You are a blessing to not only me, but to everyone around you!!
You may not believe me for this but it is true! One day you'll see it.
You are AMAZING. and so much more, but I think I'm losing the "flow" with words n won't be able to say it any better than I have thus far.
Now please "own" this and believe it :)
I wish your birthday could have been a thousand times more amazing than it was to match you, but hey there's always next year!
love you lots and lots!! xx

Wednesday, March 24, 2010


Wow, now is the time!! Reading tonight I was continuously amazed what God kept speaking to me!
It's time now!! The urgency stirred up in my soul was something I haven't felt before. It's all to start NOW!
It was amazing to realise that God has truly set me upon this earth for a time, and now it is a call to begin, a call to action.
Funnily enough I'm still a bit unsure what it is that is beginning, but I know it starts now, and the timing of God's is always perfect. He'll reveal it all or in bits as we go along, I just need to remember to trust Him (that's the hard part for me) that He'll keep me in the loop and point out the path for me.
So excited to see what He is going to use me for!! What has God placed in my hands that I can use for His work?
I haven't heard back from the job I was terrified to apply for yet, is it that, or is there something else mapped out for me? Was that a step in learning to not fear whatever is on the path God has called me to walk? Step out and go against that spirit of fear?
It's a bit mind spinning to think of everything. Distinguishing between what I have thought up in my head and what God's placed on my heart.
So it's time again to sit down, pray and stop thinking so much. Time to learn to hear God's voice. Time to listen and learn, and step out and speak.

One thing I do know.

I know that the cry of those who are disadvantaged, lonely and know more injustice than I could fathom, their cries have been heard. The love of God, His mercy, grace and His Holy answers are going to be poured out on them. Their time is now!

"You go, girl! Fight fearlessly the battle only you can win, and wield with strength again the weapons God entrusted to your care. You are the very one we have been watching for. Be empowered to..
Cover others with love.
Raise them with honour.
Empower them with wisdom.
Encourage them with vision.
Restore their dreams with purity.
Recover their strength with joy.
Free them with His truth.
Give them a future with legacy.
Awe them with beauty.
Inspire them with His splendor.
Stir them with holiness and passion." Fight Like a Girl, Lisa Bevere.

I love this!! It spoke so much to me, and reminded me of the word God had given me a few years ago. And how awesome that I'm not the only one hearing this?!! Others are being called forth as well, together with God at our head, it's unfathomable what will be achieved!

Good News for the Oppressed
1 The Spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me,
for the L
ord has anointed me
to bring good news to the poor.
He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted
and to proclaim that captives will be released
and prisoners will be freed.

2 He has sent me to tell those who mourn
that the time of the L
ord’s favor has come,
and with it, the day of God’s anger against their enemies.
3 To all who mourn in Israel,
he will give a crown of beauty for ashes,
a joyous blessing instead of mourning,
festive praise instead of despair.
In their righteousness, they will be like great oaks
that the L
ord has planted for his own glory.

Saturday, March 20, 2010


image- unsure of source

I've fallen in LOVE with Owls.
Such wise cute creatures :D

So here are just a couple of really cute ones...

Sunday Citar

Do the maths, count your blessings.

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Friday, March 19, 2010


"The early bird gets the worm. The second mouse gets the cheese."

I have mice!
Yes, MICE!!
They eat my food, poop EVERYWHERE, and use my house as a playground :(

So the mouse traps came out.
Peanut Butter does work wonders.
One was down, millions more were to go.

Then tonight number Two was caught.
It was tiny.
And only his little back leg got caught.
He cried and cried.

Now he has been 'disposed' of (so glad my cousin n his mate are visiting).

And now I'm upset over those cries, I can't get to sleep.
I feel evil.
I'm trying to stay focused on poop and loss of food, LOTS of food.

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Totally NOT fair

Went for a walk down to the creek this morning with two Canadians... it rained... it was cloudy and windy... I got sunburnt... both PALE WHITE boys didn't even turn a faint shade of pink... where is the fairness in that?

p.s. I learnt when you take a photo over your shoulder you get back clevage, wish it worked that way also from the front :)

Beat of my own drum

"If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him step to the music which he hears, however measured or far away" ~Henry David Thoreau

I've decided to take up a life of risk.
A life of daring, adventure, uncertainty and mystery.
A life worth living, no meaninglessness, no "boredom".
This is the beginning of a life instep with God.
A feat which is not going to be easy.
It will involve each day taking up my 'cross' and dying unto myself.

How hard will this be!!!
My human spirit is one of selfishness, lust, greed and laziness. One where I totally do what to live a cushy life with no hassles, no decisions harder than "juice or softdrink?", "skirt or jeans?".
No, now my life is to be in tune with God. My feet are to follow the path unknown.
A path undertaken by Christ alone. He has dealt with all the issues and difficulties I will face, He alone is sufficient to get me through them.
Though others may take up the same challenge, our journey will come to the same place, but our feet will all march to our own drum.
What use has God with an army of clones?
I have been created unique and individually for a mission only I can full fill, same as you.
I have been created for such a time as this.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

A relationship rekindled, a fire to keep ablaze

Cleaning up my mouse infested unit (seriously I was only gone 4 days, and left it relatively clean!! With no food!) I found a piece of paper amongst the piles of books and cds on my desk. On it I had written what I wanted from this weekend.

I got all of it and much more. Wish I had the words right now to say it. But for now I'm glad I found that paper and got to see yet again, God knew what I needed before I did.

Now back to disinfecting my house and sweeping up insane mountains of mouse poop.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Let's Fly Away

I'm off on a trip to Sydney tomorrow morn.
Terribly exciting!!

4 days of fun, friendship, family and fellowship.

Get to see my little sister who I haven't see since May last year.
Spend time with two wonderful friends.
Enjoy the splendour of a conference celebrating Women of God!
And one day of exploring the surrounds before jetting back home.

I'm hoping for a little bit of chilly March air, revelations of God, and Joy; lots and lots and lots of Fun and Joy.

Saturday, March 6, 2010

Sunday Citar

Let us be grateful to people who make us happy.
They are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.
~ Marcel Proust

I'm really grateful to those friends who bring a smile to my face everyday. I couldn't imagine what life would be like without them.

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A river without boundaries is a swamp...

So I happily admit I have an issue with 5 and 10 year plans.
I'm sorry, I understand why people have them, but at the same time I totally don't understand why.
Life changes so much! You never know what is going to happen. Who or what is going to be around the corner.
I've not yet had a year turn out the way I've thought it would. So I can't see why I would plan so far ahead into the future.

I got in trouble this week for not believing in 5 year plans.
And quoted "a river without boundaries is a swamp"
hmm a swamp... that makes sense. Almost makes me want to put some boundaries up, don't want my life to be a smelly swamp.

I'm not against having goals. I want to complete studies, I want my life to not be around the career of shop assistant I have now, I have holidays I want to go on.
I just don't like giving myself time limits.
24 things to do before I'm 25 was hard enough. And I'm such a bum I can't actually see myself getting half of that list done. And it's all to do with my mind set, I know!!
I need to want those things bad enough to get the list completed. And I know I can do them, and I know I can come up with some pretty legit excuses at the end to why they don't get done.
Sadly I know myself in this area too well.

Honestly I don't like the regret when I don't follow through...

So do I change? Not to make myself have 5 and 10 year plans. I think that is pushing something on to myself that I don't agree with.
But do I start to give myself time limits?
Do I start to make myself complete things for myself before another year passes and I look back and go, oops didn't get that done.

Find the $ and enrol in that Youth Worker course, THIS YEAR!!!
Find another job! Get out of retail and into something I LOVE as soon as possible!!!

That's the only goals I have at the moment.
No five year plans...

Anyway I think swamps can look pretty

Monday, March 1, 2010

Permanent Reminders

So I've become obsessed with deciding on my next tattoo.
My first isn't anything exciting to others. Just a small elephant
under my ankle.
It hurt like hell!!!
But it has meaning to me. I love elephants. They are graceful,
mate for life and don't forget. Graceful and unforgetful
- two things I'm not :)

I really want to get sojourner on my foot.

I'm only a sojourner on this earth. It's my temporary home until
heaven and eternity.
I like to remember that. It makes everything I do here and now
more important.
I don't know if that makes sense to others, but it does to me and
that's all that matters, right?

But then there were so many others I would LOVE.
I want to get a quote on my back, probably this one as it's one of
my top favourites!

I am only one, but still I am one. I can not do everything, but still
I can do something. And because I can not do everything I will not
refuse to do the something I can do. - Helen Keller

And then I would love to get the word change on my wrist. I had a
friend laugh at the irony in getting the word Change as a tattoo,
something which is permanent and can't be changed :)
But I'm always forgetting that change is something I have to do,
it can't happen unless I step out and cause it.
hmm it's mainly words I want. Permanent reminders to myself,
about who I am, who I want to be and what I can do.

Gotta be careful though, don't want to look trashy.
And I know my family are all against tattoos. They didn't bring me
up to want them. But that is who I am. I like how it portrays who I
am. I like that it can be a permanent statement to the world of on
what I stand.
I don't know others opinions on the idea, I'm sure they vary from
complete disgust to whatever floats your boat.
But for me, I'm in love with them.